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At night I\u2019ve been drinking alcohol, and sometimes stuffing myself with sugar.<\/p>\nConfession:
\nFor the past 6 months, surrounded by rice paddies, I\u2019ve spent 8 hours a day playing a computer game and watching TV. (That\u2019s 1,440 hours).<\/p>\n
At night I\u2019ve been drinking alcohol, and sometimes stuffing myself with sugar.<\/p>\n
I rarely went out, and I discouraged visitors. \u00a0I\u2019m also taking prescribed Mirtazapine and Valium, which seems to mitigate the depression and anxiety.<\/p>\n
She asked me: “What are you preparing yourself for?”
\nThe answer arose: \u201cA life of loneliness\u201d.
\n(Or to command Earth’s fleet if we’re ever invaded)<\/p>\n
Some of it was truly fun, but the overwhelming sense was of \u201cgetting by\u201d, \u201ccoping\u201d and \u201cwasting my life\u201d. With some awareness, I consumed my addictions, and watched and waited.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s surprising that people were trying to get time with me, and staggering that one or two were persistent enough to pierce the veil.<\/p>\n
So now, with a gentle nudge from the divine feminine, I\u2019ve recently made some massive changes:
\n– 6 weeks since I touched the computer game
\n– 4 weeks since I\u2019ve tasted alcohol
\n– TV watching slashed by 80% (and I\u2019m way more discerning)
\n– on a healthy eating plan (juices, vegetables, shakes, low sugar)
\n– regular sessions with a somatic therapist who is pure love<\/p>\n
There\u2019s an aliveness; a tingling\/buzzing in my energy field.
\nI\u2019m on fire with passion for theatrical improv and teaching, particularly face to face groups (and stay tuned for the google hangouts!)
\nI\u2019m filling my time with fun, games, people, and service.
\nDeep, dark scary emotions I haven\u2019t wanted to face for a very long time are coming into the light and being seen and loved.
\nThe bag of salt and vinegar chips still sits on my counter, unopened.
\nI still sometimes experience mild symptoms of fatigue, anxiety and depression, AND:<\/p>\n
I like being here, now, in my body.
\nI like the sense that maybe, just maybe, laser bolts might shoot from my hands.<\/p>\n
If you\u2019re currently making massive changes in your life, or you WANT to, I\u2019d love to hear about them below if you’re willing to share.
\nWhat are you inspired to shift?<\/p>\n